STRANGERS STILL ...

I will always try to forget you. Even force myself to forget you. But there will be times when you will still pass my mind for it is inevitable. It hasn’t been that long yet. But that doesn’t mean I will let you destroy me. It doesn’t mean I will waste my time feeling hurt. It means that I have to let you go and accept that we were always meant to be just strangers who happened to cross paths along the way. You taught me. More than you know. You changed me. And I will never be the same woman I was before I met you. You made me so happy sometimes. And you made me so mad and so sad at other times. I never knew I could feel this real. And it hurt… To feel it all because of you. I try to never show you all the pain I felt when we started to fall apart. I don’t know if I was ever enough for you. Would you have ever been content with me?  

It doesn’t matter now because you don’t care at all.

And I awake one day and I realize it is all a lost case. We are nothing. 

TOO MUCH OF A FRIEND ...

I knew what he was doing to me. And I let him do it.... make me fall for him.

I never taught there would be a me and you anyway. I better get going with getting over you 'cause you don’t seem to care at all. HAHA I guess I lose.

And I remember there was a time I cried because I could never imagine you being without me a year from now.  I could not imagine how we could spend our lives with someone else. But now, it’s ok. I feel at peace knowing I will be okay. And you will be too. It was a love that never was.

Now, I’d rather not see your face.

NO, pls don’t ask me if you can love me. Cuz I can’t answer that. I’d rather you don’t. I’m not the girl for you. 

And I guess being alone is what I’m meant for.  and that's okay. 

IT WAS NOT LOVE..

Dear girls,

You are worth more than cute and sweet text messages from any guy that tells you they want to spend time with you or invite you to see his friends or family, which never really happened. If he really loves you he will court your friends, family, even your dogs. If he just wants to hurt you or ask you to help him with something then, he doesn’t love you. If he just wants to satisfy himself, then he does not love you.

Please girls, you deserve a love that never ends. You deserve a guy that loves you and will never make you cry. To be sensitive to your feelings. To text you and say sorry when he knows he did something wrong.

He will not make you wait in vain of something he would never be able to do. Maybe he just wants to “try” you. He was just fooling around… trying women. Well, boy I hope you get tired of trying. I hope you will think of the woman who will take care of you when you grow old, ( if you grow old ). She might have a scarred memory of a guy who didn’t care when all she did was care for him.

And to him,

I thought I saw something true in you. I was wrong. 

I wanna be glad because it happened and even happier because it ended. In the end, we still all die. And you have to know that you gotta keep on going and doing life while you can.

Sincerely,

K